The Unending Journey

This life is so magical.

Its such an amazing opportunity to be triggered by outside appearances and decide to go deeply into ourselves to find the truth. The truth is who we really are, our eternal source, our perfect unchanging self.

That magical spark of source :)

Many, many humans have searched for that center point, but the strange thing is it’s actually not that hard to find. As children we do it so easily. So why do some people continue on these never ending journeys and never seem to be satisfied? Why don’t they seem to be able to find an end? Why do they always return to their belief in their own smallness?

It’s because the spiritual journey is not a set track, it’s a moving target.

That eternal moving target: consciousness expanding

In an infinite eternal universe, there can never be an end. But does that mean we will always keep falling back into despair and separation? No. That is what many people experience, but this is not how the case should be. The problem that most find, is that they reach an amazing feeling state, through whatever method they might be utilizing at the time, but instead of moving on to the next step they try to continue achieving a sense of fulfillment by repeating what worked in the past. But those things you have grown out of can’t truly fulfill you again, because the elation you once received from it was due to its complete newness. It was tied in to a natural feeling of accomplishment at finally realizing something you’ve never done before.

Let’s look at an analogy to paint a picture.

When you were ten years old, 5th grade was hard. You didn’t really know what was coming up next, because you had never been to 5th grade before. You had to stretch yourself. You had to learn new things and really grow. When you finally got through all the tests and projects, learned all the vocabulary for each subject, and finished 5th grade, you could really be proud of yourself! You had never done that before, it took you soo long and you finally did something no 9 year old ever had!

the school of life just keeps going :)

Now imagine, after finishing 5th grade, deciding to go back and start the whole grade over again. You think, “Hey, I put a lot of work into this grade and really know it all, it just makes sense to stick around. I know this stuff!” And then expecting to get the same amount of satisfaction from going through the whole year over again and graduating once more.

Ridiculous, right?

But this is what we do again and again. We get stuck in “safety”, we try the same thing over and over and when we can’t achieve the same feeling of satisfaction we start to think there is something wrong with us. But it’s not true! Any person forced to repeat the same lessons over and over again will get discouraged and bored and maybe even depressed. Because you aren’t meant to repeat what you’ve already done. You are supposed to move on.

Sixth grade is waiting for you! And guess what. It’s going to be a hard road again. It’s going to stretch you and scare you and make you grow more than you did last year. There are lesson there that you didn’t know before. EVER. You have never known these things before, once again. I’m sorry to tell you, but at this level you aren’t going to feel like a 5th grade expert, you are going to feel like a sixth grade dumbass at times. But this is the only way you can truly enhance yourself, and achieve a new feeling of satisfaction and pride in what you’ve done.

cuties :)

Now let’s pick apart this analogy so you have no more excuses.

You may be asking yourself “What if 5th grade was really really hard and I didn’t pass?” Well, that IS obviously a reason to go back, to re-learn the same lessons and really take advantage of the grade. It might be a bit easier, it might be a bit boring, but by passing you are still doing something you’ve never done before.

What if you passed the grade, but just barely, and now you want to re-do it so you can get straight As? Well, sure, if you want to waste your time on that that’s fine. ONE more go around for good measure? I can see that working for those who want an easy ride for another year, but it’s definitely not necessary. We don’t expect complete perfection of student in order to graduate, we simply ask them to be average and that is good enough. It’s a good enough basis to move on to the next, more pressing, and frankly more interesting subjects. So if it’s what you want, hey, you have free will! I will allow it :) but please: JUST ONE MORE TIME AND THAT’S IT.

Now, what if you just love love L.O.V.E.D. 5th grade so much, you love all the subjects and all the exercises and essays and projects and chapters so much, that you’re thinking “Hmmm, no, this is good enough for me. I’m gonna stick around here and become a 5th grade teacher.” -_- No. Nope. That’s not how it works. If you think you are just going to stick around down there, because it’s easy and you think you can help other people pass 5th grade you are utterly fooling yourself and trying to mask your fear. Why? Because in order to be a good teacher you have to know much much more than just what a 5th grader could ever know. You can love the subjects, and even tutor your little friends and help them with their homework, but the true wisdom of a teacher comes from a much more vast ocean of knowledge and understanding of not just the material, but also how students learn.

isn't he so sexy tho?

If you really want to be of benefit, keep going. Don’t stagnate. Don’t fester. Don’t limit yourself.

Keep going. Keep growing.

It’s the only way to keep feeling that amazing feeling of graduation, realization, achievement, expansion. Not by doing the same thing over again. But how will you know what the next grade for you really is? It's completely individual and it's found in your heart. It's up to you to listen to the cues. <3